oh baby, your so sweet

Full Life Update, The Paperheart Way.

So, I took a break from the computer, from blogging, for quite some time. Things in my life just weren't really going the way I would have liked them to be. The previous blog before this one, well, lets just say that I have tried my hardest to forget about what happened. My 'closest' friends and I just aren't as close, and that doesn't totally bug me. The ones that have stuck around have shown and proved that through thick and thin, they are true friends. For the past two months, I have not been to a guitar lesson, also I've barely picked up my guitar. The work load for the holidays has been HEAVY duty. I've been working 6-7 shifts a week, and the only nights I have off, I'd spend doing homework just so I could stay caught up in school. I considered dropping out of school, I'm not sure if I was serious about it or not, but the thought did cross my mind.

I've been trying to stay out of trouble.. and it's been working NOW, but in November.. that was another story. Right now, I'm 'seeing' this guy. I'm sure I've talked to some people on here about him. The 20 year old coworker? Things with him have been confusing. He told me that he liked me, when he was still with his girlfriend. I did not know what to say or do, so I just left it alone. Then he started to have girlfriend problems, and they broke up. Less then a week later, we're dating. I feel like it may have been my fault that they broke up. Things between us have actually been awesome, and I'm trying to make sense of how, for once, this fantastic guy who I like, likes me back. How is it possible that he can care about me, and watch out for me so much? I think he's just as much scared as I am for things to not work out, but we agreed to not get too serious because it's not really what either one of us are looking for right now. Did I mention he was 20? I'm 16, and he's 20. I know, it seems like it'd make things difficult, but it doesn't. He's not what you'd expect at all. He likes doing the things I do, and we've been just hanging out together, grabbing coffee, seeing movies, and lately we've been hanging out with my sister and niece.

I celebrated Christmas last night instead of today. Right now, it feels kind of weird and not like it's Christmas Day at all. My dad came over for dinner and to open presents. My niece was in her glory with all of her toys and clothes. She couldn't really open her gifts, so she smiled as she watched her Auntie and mommy open her gifts. Emily enjoyed playing with everything. I'm so happy that she enjoyed her first Christmas, even if she was cranky from all the excitement.

Anyways, that's all I can really think of right now. My eyes are sore from staring at the screen, and I believe I'm going to go eat some Rolo Ice Cream.

much love &hugs;;
- 007
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