Another death .. ?

RIP Grandpa.
You were the last grandparent I had alive.
I hadn't seen you in a couple of years, but that does not change a thing.
I love you, and I know your in a better and safer place.

<3

take me with you ;i start to miss you

♥

It's been two months, one week, 18 hours, and 51 minutes since you left this world.

You'd think it'd get maybe just a little bit easier... but boy, was I wrong.

I was in your room not more than ten minutes ago, and I could still smell you, still feel you.

I miss him more than words can say, more than any one can imagine.

At times, I'm scared that I'm going to forget your smile, your laugh, your smell.. anything.

I am worried that I will forget you, and that scares me more than anything.

Last month I had a dream of my brother.

He was smiling, he was chubby, and looked good &healthy.

I knew I was dreaming and forced myself not to wake up.

I asked if he was doing alright and why he was in my dream.

He told me he was taken care of, and he told me not to worry about him.

The thing that really bugged me was not being able to hug him..

He wouldn't let me.

I know it was just a dream, not my reality, but it felt so real.

*sigh* Life is one tough ride to get through.

I am strong.

I am a fighter.

♥