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It's been two months, one week, 18 hours, and 51 minutes since you left this world.
You'd think it'd get maybe just a little bit easier... but boy, was I wrong.
I was in your room not more than ten minutes ago, and I could still smell you, still feel you.I miss him more than words can say, more than any one can imagine.
At times, I'm scared that I'm going to forget your smile, your laugh, your smell.. anything.
I am worried that I will forget you, and that scares me more than anything.
Last month I had a dream of my brother.
He was smiling, he was chubby, and looked good &healthy.
I knew I was dreaming and forced myself not to wake up.
I asked if he was doing alright and why he was in my dream.
He told me he was taken care of, and he told me not to worry about him.The thing that really bugged me was not being able to hug him..
He wouldn't let me.
I know it was just a dream, not my reality, but it felt so real.
*sigh* Life is one tough ride to get through.
I am strong.I am a fighter.
2 comments:
Hiya PH sweetie. It was so good to see your name at mayos.
I miss you loads. Your comment made me smile. You are so strong and brave and you will go on to do great things.
I'm so glad you are still with your guy, long may that last and you can take strength from each other.
You will never stop missing Troy. Just keep sending him your loving thoughts.
xxxx
PH, it's so sad to read your words. loss of someone you love is so painful.
thinking of you, take care of yourself.
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