Monday, June 2, 2008

Miserable At Best

Today held a weird vibe that was following me around all day. I don't know if it was the fact that I slept in, or something else. I can't even say how it felt. School was the same old thing, run in gym, quiz in math, quiz in science, worked on hairstyling exam.. School, home, work. I'm falling into this routine that I'm itching to break.

He stared at me with those soft blue eyes.
He swallows me whole, then spits me out.
Can he see beneath my half-told lies?
Can he see into my eyes?
Maybe tomorrow, she thinks
Definitely not today.

I love how so much drama happened this year. It was definitely a shaping year for me. I found out today that my Auntie has/had cancer. This is my Auntie B. She is one of my favorites. I love it when she visits because she takes me shopping with her and she lets to pick everything out for my cousin. Let me say that she definitely isn't the best person out there, but I love her, no matter what, and this is something that she does not deserve. Cancer. I fucking hate it. It attacks the most innocent. It takes the vulnerable. If I could, I'd fight the battle against it with my own two hands. I've seen way too many people affected by that demon. Will there ever be a cure? Will our species ever grow immune to this deadly disease? I ask myself too many questions sometimes. Questions without answers. Sometimes, it's easier to face the inevitable.

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